I love being confident. It has nothing to do with conceit. To me, it means that I have self worth. It is something that I had to learn. I wasn't always confident, just the opposite. I was taught as a child that being pretty was the most important thing in the world. With that information, I felt that it was my duty, my sole purpose to make myself as pretty as I could. That without it, I would be nothing. Being smart, was not important and heaven knows, having a purpose was stupid. Constantly worrying about how people see you can be exhausting and overwhelming. My insecurities kept me from everything. I didn't know how to enjoy myself. My obsession with a pocket mirror gave people the wrong idea, it wasn't a pleasant sight that I was looking for, it was this overwhelming fear that there might be something wrong, out of place, that someone might see.
Then one day, I decided that there has to be more to me than this. I discovered where my insecurities and low self esteem came from. I didn't want to be like that anymore. I knew that I had plenty more to offer. I was smart and I was good at what I did. I made people feel good about themselves so why couldn't I be one of those people? I know that having confidence has made all the difference in the world for me. Without it, I wouldn't have been able to survive the many obstacles that I have had in my life. I'm happy with the woman I am today. I'm very proud of my accomplishments and I have found my self worth.
